Karte.CI

The Climb

Sometimes you do wonder, is it the higher you climb, the harder you fall? But for those who haven't even tried climbing how would you know you will fall or you might not? Human by nature are afraid of uncertainties, as you climb higher, we would not know what is beyond the next flight of stairs that we are taking.We can just step onto thin air and the next moment we will start to fall, failing to cling onto anything as we fall the feeling is extremely freaky but what if its the other way round? There are continuous flight of stairs for us to climb its only up to us to decide should we take the next step or not.

Well, its all up to us, some of us might have fallen so many times that we are unable to feel the pain of hitting the ground, or some have fell once and was never able to have the courage to get back onto the stairs or some have taken the first step and never have fallen.

At the end, its up to us to determine or to think whether has the previous fall worth while that we would not fall the second time. "Failure is the key to success", I do believe its through.

Karte.C

100th Post!!! 23 years of Life and a decade of Friendship

I've been misled in life, got back in the right direction, sometimes go astray, but still will find a way out. All the things I've been through is really memorable, it would have been black and white if its not for my loved ones being around me and supporting me.

1st is of course muah family, whom are dearly to me, they've been encouraging me, supporting me and advising me all the while, I know that sometimes I'm a rebel and always the radical one, but thanks without your support I think I would have been lost long ago, doing things without weighing the consequences and of course maybe I would not even see my future that clearly, even if I have a hundred years of life, I don't think I could express my gratitude towards my family. Thanks ;)

2nd of course, my lovely and dearest buddies around me, crazy bunch of fellas but with their own experience in life to share with as well as their ways of making you laugh you eyeballs out. Yup I'm refering to you guys, thanks for all the things that you all have done for me through out the years, you guys are as close as my family to me. My wishes for you all is to always stay who you are and keep moving forward together.

Therefore, in memory of my 1st 100th post, I'm using this post to express how much you all meant to me in this 23 years of life, Family .. and friends, though a few came in 10 years later .. but still ... a decade of friendship, is never easy to find.I do hope that our frienship will last for a few more decades, maybe it will even touch a century, who knows, and to those i've newly met, you all rocked too!! Sometimes, you'll find the most beautiful thing in the world through friendship its just totally incomparable and priceless. Thanks again you all meant alot to me and i guess we've seen changes in ourselves but never ceased to remind each other on the paths we're going through.

almost 2 decades of love :)

the bond that never breaks -Budakship

Past and presents :)

We never cease to laugh when we're together

PATAYAZ GANG ROCKZZZ!!

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world. -- Leo Buscaglia

Karte.XCVI

We were born into this world alone
And we'll leave alone

The only consolation is
We choose Love
We choose Life
That will make us a little less lonely

Karte.XCV

Thank You for trying to save it
But maybe its terminal
or not?

Best medicine will be time
Maybe its selfish to suffer alone
But at least pain won't linger in 2 of us
it will only be 1

Karte.XCIV

A Common Phenomena But So True

There are no 2 similar type / pattern of glasses in the world

Once broken will forever be a broken glass

As much as we try to patch it up

It was still a broken glass .. 

We can melt it, weld it , shape it .. Its still once a broken glass 

Karte.XCI

Slow Dance

Have you ever
watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to
the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a
butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading
night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so
fast
Time is short.
The music won't
last
Do you run through each day
On the
fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the
reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your
bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through
your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so
fast
Time is short.
The music won't
last
Ever told your child,
We'll do it
tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good
friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance
so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't
last
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You
miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry
through your day,
It is like an unopened gift...
Thrown away.
Life is not a
race
Do take it slower
Hear the
music
Before the song is over.

P/S : I find it extremely meaningful when i read the poem. It was written by a dying patient of cancer and hope those who read it will forward the poem to all of your friends

Karte.XC

Time Flies

To add to my previous post, I pondered about this ..
Before you read this, think back how you actually spend your time from Elementary Education till your working life

It begins ...
Before elementary education
We count time by the seconds
During elementary education
We count time by the minutes
During Primary Education
We count time by the hours
During Secondary Education
We count time by Days
During Tertiary Education
We count time by Weeks
During Works
We count time by Years

Did you noticed? We skipped 1 phase, I'm trying to say, as we grow, the way we spend time is growing as well, We just need to slow ourselves down or else, we would have spent it all, and yes if we are going to spend it in a manner that's so quick.. better to spend it wisely and in a valuable manner too. Cherish time, and cherish things around you that have lasted through the times that we are on this Earth.

Karte.LXXXIX

Internship Week 3 And 4
Time Flies..

So, in this recent post, i've decided to give a theme for my internship blogs :) Somehow I find that with themes its easier for me to remember and easier for readers to understand what I am trying to convey in my journey of being an intern so far.

So as I have stated like the theme, "Time Flies" yup it does. In just a blink of an eye 2 weeks had passed me by and there are 2 major unforgettable events that happened.
1)Week 4, Internet connection down! to most of you maybe you find it that its not that serious but to me.. I felt miserable :(
2)Most important, I hoped time can goes by slowly as I had to sit and watch as day dawns, it draws closer to the fact that my dad will be leaving to Indonesia. Goodbyes are always hard but when there is good byes there will always be "hies" so i guess that's the best way to comfort myself for the time being on how to deal with departures

As for work in week 3 and week 4, yes! i've almost at completion of my 1st task in my project. hopefully by week 5 i would get evaluated of my task by my supervisor and proceed further. For those who's still pondering what my project is, I've developed an excel - liked application from scratch :) its one big leap for Yangkee yeah! i've been debugging and developing it non-stop hehehe .. but i felt its not enough, and i will proceed on learning more things

"As long as we don't try something new, We won't grow"

Btw, I'm proud to say I am celebrating my first Labor Day hahaha which my colleague had been reminding me that Friday,1st of May is a holiday hahaha well to me its just another holiday i guess, I've been to work for only 4 days which dun seem to be long .. Again time flies ...

Stay tune for week 5 :) let you all know bout my task completion :)

Karte.LXXXVIII

Internship Week 2

As i've said earlier, i'll update my blog weekly about my internship, o0o yeah i forgot to snap a pic of what I did in my project till now, well guess i was busy over the weekend :) 

Anyway nothing really extraordinary happened throughout tha

t weekend. But there is this day where I'm really happy for mah brada Andrew Lee :) He's finally graduate !!!! Yeah i received this while i was working

I'M FINALLY GRADUATE!!!!  - by Andrew Lee

YUP! for some reason i think both of us liked this pic alot kakakakka 

Neway bro! all the best in your undertakings and may you be successful as you lead on to your next chapter of your life :) I'll be joining ya real soon don't worry Xp

SO back to work, I've finally finished most of the common functions in the project, now in 3rd week, the real hard part begans, but i'm still training my best to learn as much as possible within this 3 moths or rather 10 weeks left ...  

I guess so much for week 2 of problem solving internship life :) 

*there's always loop holes in every problem, its just whether we notice the smallest or the most basic thing in solving that problem or not. Therefore, don't look far, it might just be under your nose -Yangkee-

Karte.LXXXVII

Journeys and Crossroads

I realised,

We were meant to walk different paths

Even if we might meet at a crossroad

Its just a stop momentarily

To speak of our journey

But we still are aiming at different destinations

How many would actually walk with you
Maybe I'll walk down this path 

To guide you through the stony edges

And still you will go different direction

A guidance is also momentary

Maybe we will come to another crossroad

But how many crossroads will we meet? 

How many crossroads to determine our destination? 

Till then the undefined time will proof

I need to continue my journey now 

May we meet again at the crossroad

Karte.LXXXVI

Internship Week I

So, I gave some thoughts into what should I blog lately, therefore I've decide to note down my internship experience weekly :) it'll be easier for me, if i do it daily it might get too boring and I don't think i'll be able to write anything after i return from work cause i'll be dread tired already 

So, this is practically my first weekend spending as a full time worker, and somehow i felt life can not get this less stressful, I have to do something i liked, therefore, went to library get some books to read up more about the application that i'll be developing

Back in work, yeah day 1 was hard for me, get up early morning, not sure what i'll be anticipating, but it was quite interesting as day 1 itself i've started creating interfaces for my application but i know its still far to go. Wish i could create a snap shot to show what i've developed, but nevermind, soon soon :) 

Interesting things that happened during the week, well for starters I'm experiencing a relaxing yet stressful environment at work. Why say so? Getting to work place was a relaxing one, colleagues were friendly, Raymond(My Supervisor), Jessica and Kho. Best part is, I was treated to lunch twice by my superiors, thanks Raymond and Kho! 

Stressful in a way that when work starts, I am focusing on the things that i need to developed sometimes I can go for hours without looking else where but the laptop screen. When there are complications that's the worst part, really finding it hard to solve but if the problem is solved it somehow gave a sense of satisfaction to myself:) . Basically, life as a programmer is just to sit and program, at times you'll just program till you won't want to leave the chair, maybe this is called momentum is guess. 

All in all, it was an interesting week 1, there's 13 weeks to go, lets see what difference i'll be able to do to myself being a programmer, its either i like or i'll dislike it. :) 

Karte.LXXXV

Internship Life Day III

9 am

Reach work, brain is like --------------> 

• Filled with hopes and solutions for the problems given yesterday 
  
• Fresh from the morning breeze 
• It feels like your memory has been reset to zero and contains nothing

5.59pm

<---- Brain becomes like this

• Stucked with simple codes
  
• Memory capacity overloaded
  
• Slight jam from office to home
  
• Sunlight shines directly on your face 
  

*yet, i know i am not the only one like that wakakakaka .. welcome to world friends!

Karte.LXXXIV

A Love Affair 

Another semester had ended, again, like I once said to someone, our academic year will go by in just a blink of an eye, i don't usually blog about my Academic Semesters but this last semester was a very special one. I was thrown a question by my friend asking me how was my semester when it began, I told her, "Its like a love affair". 

???? 

Yeah, I know you all must be confused with what i said, well let me elaborate more. 

I took 5 courses this semester, namely Artificial Intelligence, Digital Logics, IT Communications, Object Oriented Programming and lastly Human Computer Interface.... And here is why its like a love affair..

It all began with ...

Human Computer Interface - Its all about interface to attract, the first impression, once interface is done properly, first impression plays an important role. Thats what boys and girls do during the first meeting with each other. Don't you want to look good on your first date or meet the opposite sex? 

When there's sparkles, came ... 

Artificial Intelligence - Something mysterious and cannot be resolved 

Which leads to a relationship, love comes mysteriously and goes mysteriously, people have spent their life time resolving on how to understand how love goes and yet still there ain't any answers

Then the story begins with 

IT Communication - A relationship will not survive without communication. Its the main thing for all of us. Not only relationships, its needed daily. So yeah we learnt about communication, it seemed hard at first, but once you get used to it, you'll see that you want to communicate everyday.

As time goes one.. 

Digital Logics - Somewhere somehow, in a love affair we need logics to keep our minds clear off so we would not emotionally make wrong choices or decisions. YES! Digital logics was our hardest subject to survive. Because love is ruled by emotions and being logic can always lead to really contradictory thoughts.. Therefore don't we hate 'Digital Logics' Xp

And when there's problems both needs to learn .... 

OOP(Object Oriented Programming) - The main word is programming, which means problem solving, we often face problems in our life, esp in a relationship, therefore being good at programming might help :) just joking, what i'm trying to say is, we must be good at problem solving, think think think and think, don't constraint yourself

So here we have it a semester of love affair. As I have said, it came in a short time and it ended just before we knew it.

*note the above definitions and characteristic has nothing to do at all with what i've learnt this semester. It just adds to my diary of useless knowledge :)

Karte.LXXXIII

I will be there as long as I can,
And as much as I can be ,
Essence of time will reveal the truth
If its meant to be known it will be,
If its not, then it will forever remain buried,
Till then I will choose my path.

Karte. LXXXI

Paths

Often we felt some way, some part of our life, we don't know where we are going, wheter the road ahead of us is clear or clouded with mist. We don't know how to walk that road, but yet tides of time kept pushing us forward, like it or not we're like moving down a steep slope and we can't pull brakes the only thing is we can just try to do is to go slower but yet, it still doesn't neglect the fact that we need to walk the path ahead of us. 

Sometimes we believe in the road we're walking but at times we do ponder if what we believing in is correct or not. We wouldn't know until we thoroughly ravel the path that we've taken. Still if we found out the path is wrong, we can't turn back, we'll just continue to move forward. Yes at times we look back and see the black and white path written clearly in our minds and subconsciousness, there were smooth paths and yet we'll remember mostly the most rough ones we've gone through. In this lifetime, I often find out that we count our rough paths more than smooth ones. We often neglected the gift of smooth paths that's been given to us. Times when we had to walk through rough rocky paths with a fellow friend. There are too much grudges held in the rough paths that we've been through and we can't just let it go. At times rough paths made us feel hard to decide where we want to lead our next path to. So we decide to let off our hands and free flow down the slope just let it roll as they say.

Though there are dark paths we've been through but still we can't just let our life free fall down the slope. Some how we've got to get hooked back onto the road we want to lead too. If we free flow down the slope, without us knowing it, we'll reach the foot of the hill and there won't be anyting left for us to glance back to what we've been through. 

We might get lost at times in the paths that we've taken but somehow like i said, its a slope and definitely we'll make it through the path and there won't be any dead ends. Dead ends are only decided by people who wished to stop going through the path and decides to leap off the cliff. 

*We've stumbled, fall down, injured ourselves during this journey, but we'll get up look ahead for there will always be a clearing in front of us. Believe in it and it will reveal itself to us one day. 

Karte.LXXIX

If its not going to be worth it now
Its not going to be worth it forever
Decide for yourself
No one is going to make decisions for you
Its your life
Hold and grasp it hard
If not, it will just fly away or controlled by situations around you

Karte.LXXVIII

An Integer Love Poem

i fear always be a lonely number like root 3
a 3 is all that's good and right
why must my 3 keep out of sight
beneath a vicious square root sight
i wish instead i were a 9
for 9 could thwarth this evil trick
with just some quick arithmetic
I know i could never see the sun as 1.321
such as my reality a sad rationality
with hark as swear as this can see
another square root of its 3
quietly come bouncing by
together now we multiply
form a number we confer
rejoicing as an integer
we break free from our mortal bonds
with a waive of our magic wands
where root signs has become unglue
and love for me has been renewed

from - harold and kumar

Karte.LXXVII

Sad And Pissed

The news came to me bout 1045 after i did my subject pre - registration ...

*Phone rang,

Mom : where are you ( wonder why she asks this always Xp)

Me : Home lo

Mom : Drive safely ar, dun speed..

Me : (*wondering why she's saying this early in the morning) Ok, i don't speed

Mom : Do you know the kid that stayed a few blocks away from us? He met with an accident, his friend was driving this honda city, while taking a corner, lost control of his car and swayed into a parked lorry

Me : Omg ... how is the kid?

Mom : He and the girlfriend died on the spot .... During the funeral, all the deceased friends hugged their mom while crying... the mom cried the hardest, and according to the deceased father, his death was caused by a hard impact onto the brain....

Somehow something in my conscious told me I won't be seeing this kid anymore, maybe I shouldn't be calling him kid anymore, but in my mind, i saw him running around the streets of my house when he was so young, with his bicycle, with the parents till high school where he'd walk back to his house and till he started to drive a car with P license which embedded me with the impression that he is gonna be a kid forever in my memories...

But when I heard he is no longer within the street, the house he is in, the dog he loved so much, somehow i felt a certain pinch in my soul, even though i didn't had a chance to know him but feel his existence in my life.

Therefore, moral of the story is, don't speed your car, even though its a super solid car, it's not worth giving away your life or others life like that. To all drivers around the world, do not victimize your passengers just for the fun of speed, or else you will live with the guilt for the rest of you life. Just remember, its not easy to achieve what you have untill today, its even harder for our parents to raise us till this age, it takes more that 2 decades of patience, love and caring to do so. Cherish our life, because we owe it to our parents and to everyone whom loved us in this world.

* a moment of silence for the deceased ..

Karte.LXXIV

RUN by Snow Patrol

.. somehow i just can't get this song out of my head ...
.. a song those who felt rather lost, a bit despair, needs some melancholic feeling ..
life's a lil sucky at times, therefore we need music, to sing our souls out


I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

6.17am, 26/2/2009
-owe this song to Lobbie-

Karte.LXXIII

Stress Relieve

cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The
phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,

it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm.

Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if
you can raed tihs psas it on !!


*Try reading it and it will prove how smart you are :)

juz a simple reminder to let you chill in your life :)