Karte.LXXXII

Feels like I'm dancing within closed walls, Even space is limited 

Karte. LXXXI

Paths

Often we felt some way, some part of our life, we don't know where we are going, wheter the road ahead of us is clear or clouded with mist. We don't know how to walk that road, but yet tides of time kept pushing us forward, like it or not we're like moving down a steep slope and we can't pull brakes the only thing is we can just try to do is to go slower but yet, it still doesn't neglect the fact that we need to walk the path ahead of us. 

Sometimes we believe in the road we're walking but at times we do ponder if what we believing in is correct or not. We wouldn't know until we thoroughly ravel the path that we've taken. Still if we found out the path is wrong, we can't turn back, we'll just continue to move forward. Yes at times we look back and see the black and white path written clearly in our minds and subconsciousness, there were smooth paths and yet we'll remember mostly the most rough ones we've gone through. In this lifetime, I often find out that we count our rough paths more than smooth ones. We often neglected the gift of smooth paths that's been given to us. Times when we had to walk through rough rocky paths with a fellow friend. There are too much grudges held in the rough paths that we've been through and we can't just let it go. At times rough paths made us feel hard to decide where we want to lead our next path to. So we decide to let off our hands and free flow down the slope just let it roll as they say.

Though there are dark paths we've been through but still we can't just let our life free fall down the slope. Some how we've got to get hooked back onto the road we want to lead too. If we free flow down the slope, without us knowing it, we'll reach the foot of the hill and there won't be anyting left for us to glance back to what we've been through. 

We might get lost at times in the paths that we've taken but somehow like i said, its a slope and definitely we'll make it through the path and there won't be any dead ends. Dead ends are only decided by people who wished to stop going through the path and decides to leap off the cliff. 

*We've stumbled, fall down, injured ourselves during this journey, but we'll get up look ahead for there will always be a clearing in front of us. Believe in it and it will reveal itself to us one day. 

Karte.LXXX

Dead and Gone

I've been travelin' on this road too long
Im just try and find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

I aint never been scared, I lived through tragedy
Situation coulda been dead lookin' back at it
Most of that shit didn't even have to happen
But you don't think about it when you out there trappin'
In apartments, hangin', smokin', and rappin'
Niggas start shit, next thing ya know we cappin'
Get locked up then didn't even get mad
Now think about damn what a life I had
Most of that shit, look back, just laugh
Some shit still look back get sad
Maybe my homboy still be around

Karte.LXXIX

If its not going to be worth it now
Its not going to be worth it forever
Decide for yourself
No one is going to make decisions for you
Its your life
Hold and grasp it hard
If not, it will just fly away or controlled by situations around you

Karte.LXXVIII

An Integer Love Poem

i fear always be a lonely number like root 3
a 3 is all that's good and right
why must my 3 keep out of sight
beneath a vicious square root sight
i wish instead i were a 9
for 9 could thwarth this evil trick
with just some quick arithmetic
I know i could never see the sun as 1.321
such as my reality a sad rationality
with hark as swear as this can see
another square root of its 3
quietly come bouncing by
together now we multiply
form a number we confer
rejoicing as an integer
we break free from our mortal bonds
with a waive of our magic wands
where root signs has become unglue
and love for me has been renewed

from - harold and kumar

Karte.LXXVII

Sad And Pissed

The news came to me bout 1045 after i did my subject pre - registration ...

*Phone rang,

Mom : where are you ( wonder why she asks this always Xp)

Me : Home lo

Mom : Drive safely ar, dun speed..

Me : (*wondering why she's saying this early in the morning) Ok, i don't speed

Mom : Do you know the kid that stayed a few blocks away from us? He met with an accident, his friend was driving this honda city, while taking a corner, lost control of his car and swayed into a parked lorry

Me : Omg ... how is the kid?

Mom : He and the girlfriend died on the spot .... During the funeral, all the deceased friends hugged their mom while crying... the mom cried the hardest, and according to the deceased father, his death was caused by a hard impact onto the brain....

Somehow something in my conscious told me I won't be seeing this kid anymore, maybe I shouldn't be calling him kid anymore, but in my mind, i saw him running around the streets of my house when he was so young, with his bicycle, with the parents till high school where he'd walk back to his house and till he started to drive a car with P license which embedded me with the impression that he is gonna be a kid forever in my memories...

But when I heard he is no longer within the street, the house he is in, the dog he loved so much, somehow i felt a certain pinch in my soul, even though i didn't had a chance to know him but feel his existence in my life.

Therefore, moral of the story is, don't speed your car, even though its a super solid car, it's not worth giving away your life or others life like that. To all drivers around the world, do not victimize your passengers just for the fun of speed, or else you will live with the guilt for the rest of you life. Just remember, its not easy to achieve what you have untill today, its even harder for our parents to raise us till this age, it takes more that 2 decades of patience, love and caring to do so. Cherish our life, because we owe it to our parents and to everyone whom loved us in this world.

* a moment of silence for the deceased ..

Karte.LXXVI

Roti Ruler

So, I went out with Pattayaz gang to look for food, after a sucky movie Dragonball Evolution. Trust me guys reading the comic Dragonball Z or going for Dragonball GT is way way better!

Anyway that's just a sucky experience, the best part is yet to come, after hearing from a friend about a place in Seri Kembangan that sells more than 30 varieties of roti canai, so the Pattayaz Gang decided to hunt for the place :) and fortunately after a few turn rounds inside the SK village, Pattayaz Gang found it ... I'll let the pictures to further describe the food .. enjoy!


Roti Titanic
Roti 2007

Roti 2009
Roti Michale Jackson( I don't know why they call it that)
Above is the list of varieties :)

If you are wondering where is it, it's located in SK 8, find for a restaurant called Three Three Restaurant, it's just opposite that restaurant, clearly it's a mamak shop :)

Hope you guys will enjoy :)


Karte.LXXV

Somehow, I felt ..

andai, aku pergi , sebelum mu ...
kenangkan aku selalu di dalam doa mu
kaulah cinta pertama yang terakhir untuk ku
ku berjanji kan menantimu
setia menunggu di pintu syurga ....
Suddenly just fell for this song .. Di Pintu Syurga -by KRU -